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Mapping Gowanus: 3rd Avenue b/w President and Union

By Susan Hwang

When I came to this block in 2014, I was 41 and had just broken up with my partner of 6 years, lost my corporate job, moved to Bushwick with only one cat (used to live with three), and would soon lose in January of 2015, my car of 20 years (oh, sweet BGY200 of 1994, manual transmission Toyota Corolla with a heart of gold).  Things were so different than anything I had yet to experience.  No one ever told me that the forties were the new twenties.  Hello freedom and experimentation!  I had the opportunity to “follow my ‘Ooo.’”  That’s what I called it then—the freedom to choose anything that made you go, “Ooo!” inside—some curiosity or excitement. 

My best friend and old roommate from college came to visit that summer, and on this humid, stormy August day, I took her to the block of 3rd Ave between Union and President so I could start my assignment.  We sat in the car and took selfies, just like real 20 year olds.  They were the first selfies of our friendship.  We were giddy just to be together, sitting in my old 1994 corolla just like we used to, except now in our frisky 40 year old bodies and fresh from our break ups (her marriage of 10 years was ending then too).

The block gave me messages in every storefront window.  Each awning told the story of where I was.  The bicycle shop, the wheels, The Canal Bar, Union Street (ending of unions), President Street (“secret president” was a term my ex had coined, and I thought it accurately described how he functioned in my life — not just the sounding board, but kind of the behind-the-scenes approval-giver and direction provider).  Even 2 Tom’s Restaurant — my ex’s name.

I think it may have taken me 5 years to complete this assignment because the piece that I started was so personal.  I usually write songs about books—other people’s lives, other people’s words, fictional characters.  I’m much more comfortable with some distance (hello, intimacy issues!).  So maybe 5 years has given me the distance I needed to complete this song, if “complete” is the right word.  It’s still feels very much like a presentation of ideas—an experiment.

The distance has also given me this new perspective on pain.  Honestly, I can’t decide anymore whether pain is good or bad.  This is confusing for me as a lifelong avoider of pain.  It used to be clear that pain was bad, and I should avoid it at all costs, and also that it was my job to protect those I loved from pain (hence, lying to my mother and staying in relationships longer than necessary).  And it’s only taken me 46 years to even begin to come to the understanding that it may not be good to do what you think is protecting others from pain, and besides, it’s not possible.  You can’t do it, and it shouldn’t be done.  It’s still a mind fuck even to write it aloud. 

Also, what about the thought that some pain is good.  After the break up, loss of job, change of residence, losing my car, etc… my ovaries decided that things were not safe out there in my life, so they were calling it a day.  They freaked out and stopped working… for a year.  One whole year with no periods.  And that’s after being rock solid on schedule, three-days-bleeding-and-out since I was 13.  I went to doctors, and they told me terrible things like I was probably prematurely menopausal, and they used terrible words like “vaginal atrophy” to describe what I had to look forward too.  It was then that I decided the new rule for my life would be that the word “atrophy” would never get anywhere near my vagina.  No, sir, not this one… you’ve got the wrong vagina.  Keep it moving. 

My period eventually came back (I started making some money doing freelance assisting for an old friend, and all of a sudden it looked like I had a way to survive on earth, so the survival trauma let go, and I started bleeding again).  When I began to bleed again, I was so excited… so so relieved and glad that I didn’t have to let go of that yet.  The pain of menstruation came again (so bad always that first day), and when I felt it, I heard this inner cheering — like when the air starts changing and you can feel spring is a certainty instead of just an idea.  Or like knowing you can both pay rent and buy that bottle of vanilla.   Or like when you hit that sweet spot of the day’s first caffeine hitting your blood stream and suddenly everything’s a good idea and everyone’s adorable.  I was happy feeling this pain.  It meant I was healthy.  How could pain mean that everything was alright??  How can pain be the indication of rightness?  That’s fucked up, isn’t it?  I welcome the pain every time now.

I’m thinking the more you’re in acceptance of pain, the less there is that can hurt you.  If you’re not afraid of pain, then you’re kind of not afraid of anything, right?

This of course is being said as I’m finding my way around sciatic pain from degenerative disc disease, herniated disc, blah blah… where the pain was so bad on Monday, I was weeping while making hamburgers.  At the same time I was laughing, because it was so extreme it was ridiculous, like, you know, a girl shouldn’t hurt so much while making hamburgers.  That’s moronic.

I know that pain is its own opportunity.  It’s an avenue of understanding.  It’s one way.  Beauty is too.  But I swear, it’s like there are layers and layers of both, and one does not negate the other.  It seems like everything is an avenue.  There are only avenues.  If I get to choose, I’ll take jokes and beauty and puppies.  If there’s only pain at the buffet that day, then I’ll scrounge around my purse for that reserve of acceptance.

Mapping Gowanus: Hoyt st. b/w 4th st. and the Canal

 

Gowanus Sonnet

by Adam Reid Sexton

 

Post-Carroll Street, when you are Brooklyn-bound

On what my father called the IND,

The F emerges from beneath the ground,

And fills with light (by day) and you can see.

 

And what you see, if you look to the left:

Scratchiti; the reflection of your face;

A moonscape, blocks wide, edifice-bereft,

Within the tracks’ Erector Set embrace.

 

Perusal at Hoyt’s terminus reveals

Cement mixers, rotating, marked FB,

A Sheeler painting, all blue sky and steel:

Ferrara Brothers’ concrete factory —

 

The swan song of Kings County’s smokestack past,

As out of reach as Whole Foods’ lot is vast.

 

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Mapping Gowanus: Sackett st. b/w Bond & the Canal

Homage to crud

On my way to Sackett St. between Bond and the Gowanus Canal, I may have passed a dozen construction sites, where luxury housing is slated to fill any and every crevice of my hyper-gentrifying neighborhood, Cobble Hill. Gowanus, too, is now home to luxury “waterfront” properties situated on the Canal, which is, never mind, a highly polluted, odiferous Superfund site. The block I was mapping is a piece of pre-gentrified Brooklyn that will no doubt soon be another astronomically expensive enclave, after all there are some large empty lots on this block that simply cannot survive the low interest, cheap money that is fueling the latest frenzy of development.

There was evidence of impending change – a surveyor was there, and a construction site sign that warned visitors not to enter. Nothing was actually getting built, and the block was quiet, save for a few stragglers like myself. I felt like I was documenting some last remains of industry, poverty, detritus, vandalism, and even art.

I was touched by the deconstructed air conditioners that had been slaughtered for their copper, the residue of a meal, a puddle of broken glass, cracked sidewalks, patched cobblestone, a shredded plastic bag, graffiti (even a pathetic “Trump” stencil), and all the crud that left traces of transient activity – a few Bud Lights, an abandoned work glove, a no parking sign for a film shoot called “Cyclops” that I’m guessing was a flop. The block reminds me of the kinds of decayed places I sought out in my teens to kick around and smoke cigarettes or get high. I will miss this block when it becomes sanitized by the encroaching money, eager to smooth out its edges and discard the trash.

Joan Grossman, Feb. 28, 2017

     

 

 

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Mapping Gowanus: 3rd ave. b/w 7th & 8th streets

This entry of Mapping Gowanus comes from writer Michael Slade.

A Tree Grows in Gowanus

On Third Avenue between Seventh and Eighth Streets in Gowanus stands a magnificent tree.  It’s particularly striking because, aside from a few scraggly, almost unnoticeable little cousins, there are no other trees as far as one can see in either direction up and down the avenue.  If a tree could choose where it was to spend its life, my guess is that a busy avenue across the street from auto mechanics and beer distributors would not be at the top of its list.  And yet, here this tree proudly stands.  And because it stands alone, it compels passersby to notice it in a way its relatives in Prospect Park cannot.  And as it does, this tree seems to declaim to resident and visitor alike , “I was here to see what Gowanus was, and I’m here to see what Gowanus is, and I will be here to see what Gowanus will be… because I am rooted here, and I’m not going anywhere.“
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